Happy Thanksgiving

I just wanted to stop by on my blog before the festivities start and say Happy Thanksgiving to you all and That I am grateful to get to be here every day and blog and meet so many people! I hope you all enjoy today with your loved ones near and far. and always remember be nice to people !

two blog posts one day

I didn't know how I wanted to start out this post , becuase I feel as though it's a touchy subject, or at least it is too me.

 I have to say that I love this picture :-) Just a random picture. 

So as most of my recent posts are about moving and what everyone has their opinions. And I know that I have some supportive friends and then some friends who I am like uh what the heck are you trying to do. 

I have been thinking a lot lately because during a time in your life when you are changing for the better it shows who your true friends are. What I mean by that is that they are happy that you are doing so much better for your life rather then you be miserable. I know when to not fight anymore and just say good bye to them. 

It's what will be best for me and less stressful.  Yes Stress is apart of me right now because well time crunch. As I spend the last hopefully 3 days of work (keep those fingers crossed). I am so nervous to not have a job, that's a huge change for working for 6 years and then all of a sudden not be working. It's so weird and I haven't really had that sink in yet. I bet on Sunday when I am eating dinner with my co workers that that's when It will hit me. My co workers are my other family between the laughs and the I hate you at this moment to not . 

We have weird relationships with our customers too. We get some really nice regulars and then some you just want to strangle! But I was so excited to see Sam I am the dog It's real name is Sammie . But what was so funny was I knew it was them by their order!!! You all probably think that is really weird and I have to say yeah it is, but who cares.

P.S. I did say that I probably won't blog til after I settled oops ! sorry this was on my mind, had to write it here before I forgot.

Well I am off to bed Good Night

to- do lists among other ramblings

So I've been on pinterest last night looking up easier ways to pack up my room and what to take and what not to take with me. I feel as though It's been a rough couple of days because I feel as though with all the stuff that I did get rid of I feel like I've aquired more. how is that possible?


So I am sitting at work because 1. I thought I started at 7 and really started at 8 :-( could of probably slept in a little while longer. But that's ok I started up my car early got ready for work came out and cleaned off my moms car for her if she was gonna go out durning the day so she didn't have to do it.
Picked up my co worker so she wasn't walking on ice the whole time.

And now I am sitting here blogging on my ipad . I have to say this is a great thing to have in my purse along with having a notebook for the occasional to- do list . Which seems to be getting a lot bigger as the days go on.

My friends have been planning on a going away party, and My schedule has been so compacted that It's been a hard time to get everyone together. Yeah big groups of people and a lot of schedule conflicts are a hard to plan, but it gets done.

I know that lately I've been complaining a lot of the time with some of my friends being overly selfish , and I am grateful for some of my friends who are not selfish, I am happy of my decision and I've been super tired of proving them wrong. It's like you can be happy for me or just be completely angry with me.  But I am going and that's that. I don't care if you don't like me after that or that I didn't spend time with you it's a two way street I shouldn't have to come down to you every time. or at least meet me half way.  Sorry got off topic.

I knew that these last few weeks were gonna go by fast , and I am kind of glad they did. I mean yes I'll miss every one who i've met through out my life, and some people I would just like to forget. But a change is something that I need to have in my life and if this is what is gonna help me start not completely over but at least do something better with my life then here goes nothing.

12 years gone too soon

As I sit here and warm up from our very cold and snowy weather, I felt as though the days have been running together.

So realizing what the date was today It made me realize that not only was it 12 years ago today that my dad had lost his battle with cancer, but over all it was snowing. And you all will probably think that it''s just crazy how it always snows and does the big fluffy style snowflakes. And I always felt a sense of ease even though I hate snow. When my dad had passed it was actually snowing that day it was the light fluffy snow, and almost every year it would snow on this day. So in a way this was my way of having a moment with my dad. 

I would say that my dad is proud of me in ways that anyone would be proud or at least semi proud. 

I know that my profession isn't what most people would think as a profession. But we all have what our professions should be. 

As I am getting ready to move down to Florida , I feel as though I've been on a roller coaster , with being so busy with working , and coming home and packing, and getting some more sleep because I am so stressed out and tired all the time.  Convincing my friends that this is what I want is a nightmare, constant reminders that if I want to be selfless let me be . I may not be a selfish person and granted I was not brought up that way. 

I went to go visit the cemetaries where my families are buried and there in two different spots one in ressurection cemetery and then queen of heaven  with a half hour drive in between, depending on traffic and construction, because that always seems to be popping up everywhere now adays . 

As I probably won't be blogging that much until I am situated in Florida .

 I hope every one has a great Thankssgiving with friends and familes!

unofficial Thanksgiving

Yeah that is what I am going to call it. You may be wondering why I am calling thanksgiving unofficial thanksgiving, well if you are curious enough we are having thanksgiving today 11-15-14 just two weeks before the actual holiday. We thought that this would be easier on us because that week we will be packing up our house to move to FL. Scary I know , but also filled with excitement! Any time I start to talk about Florida I just have this eagerness to explore and meet up with my friends that I know and to finally meet one of my blogger friends Cami! To say that I will miss where I lived for the past 25 years yeah, it was my childhood home, but I know there are better things out there for me.m

I know that many people are still up in the air about me going, I understand that they want me to stay. but I am following what is in my heart right now and that is starting a new more opportunites. Plus I want to leave all the bad things behind, it's time to move on and leave the people that haven't been supportive in my life or have been way too opinionated to say the least.

As I've said before its not the last time anyone is going to see me, there are ways to see each other through skype, phone calls text messages, etc... I know that goodbye seems like a long time, but I am willing to make some sacrafices and I have been, yeah I'm giving up a lot up here like friends and family and what I grew accustomed too, but I feel and know that it's the right decision to go.

I know that there is many hating going on with my decisions and sometimes I truly wonder our friendships in the end, and I mean who wouldn't wonder? I've always have gotten the end of a deal where I am more selfless then selfish, and I am perfectly ok with that. Granted yes there is occasional selfish times, but I am the more putting others before my own, and I have to say I don't know if everyone likes me that way. I always feel as though they have a problem with it. I am sorry that if you don't like me for who I am , then why do I even bother. I am an introvert selfless human being, I've had a rough couple of months, and when finally things start to turn around for me and become better, is when people start turning.

In other news, this blog was supposed to be published yesterday, but Time got away with me.
I can tell you this about me I am not a very affectionate person, like I give hugs and kisses and what not, but it's not like PDA all the time , I've been noticing that a lot more with myself that I've drawn back on being so available with what I am thinking with relationships and I do have to say that I don't think that for me being in  a relationship at this present time is what I need, I've been working way to much and hard to give up , but I just feel with everything going on with all my friends not being supportive, I just feel as though I am putting into perspective are these the people that I want to share my most inner thoughts, granted I share it on here all the time with people I don't know.

Just something to think about over the next couple of days.

A change for the better

Helllo Everyone, I am sorry for not blogging, Ive bee busy with packing.You're probably wondering why I am packing. Well if you have read my latest blog posts, you'll see that I am moving, but I didn't tell you exactly where I was going, because in all reality I didn't even know where I wanted to go.  I know many people have been very voice opinionated, and I get it. It's a HUGE CHANGE. I have decided to go to Florida with my mom. Yes I know I am 26 years old and that I should make my own decisions and I did, I did it for me and for my mom to have someone else down there for in case of emergencies. Does that make me selfish? Yeah probably , but with everyones opinion its been added more stress to me, I understand that its a huge change for everyone me included , but I never been this excited to do something different, am I worried that I will lose contact with people, yeah change can be a great thing or a horrible thing. I know that I won't be gone long cause who knows if I'll like it down there, but I will never know unless I try. And If noone can support me on this journey then why am I friends with them? I know that they are hurting that I am leaving , but if they were truly my friends they would be happy that I am taking control of my life. I always think of if it were my friends and they were moving 1200 miles away from everything that they have to try a new expierence, then so be it I will always say good luck and that I am happy for you.

 I am beyond excited to start this new journey in my life, am I giving up my old life, no I am just enhancing it by traveling. I always wanted to travel. 

I know that Steven is having a hard time with all of this because I am leaving, I keep saying that it's not good bye it's just a so long for now. I know change is hard on everyone and if you love that person , and they want to try something different then all you can do is support them, long distance relationship are rough on both parties, but if your love is strong it will still be hard, but if your both willing to work at it while being in the distance and still come out on top then you are golden. Idk maybe I am just the one who knows it will work, as though I feel as though it will be a one way street, and if it happens to be it so be it. I know that I said that I wouldn't leave ,but I've been trying so hard with everything that I want the change.

That's all for now  Love you guys.

still looking around

There are times in my life where life is just plain confusing. I am so conflicted with emotions and just dont know what to do anymore. A while back in my blogs you've probably read about a guy named Chris. Well he hasn't made an appearance in my life for over a month in a half. And now on Halloween he decided to give me a call.?? Why the hell is that? I am still trying to figure that out. most  of the conversation was about catching up and seeing whats up i guess.  It's just so weird and stupid because why would you even think that I would take you back after not speaking. It's like you want a death wish or something. I am just kidding about the death wish. I think he got the idea that I was gonna stick around . I don't stick around for anyone really. 
This month is gonna go by quickly I can feel it. I still havent found a place that is reasonable in price and in a good part of town. It's either I go out really far or stay close to home and pay an  astronomical price. are there any way to make it eaiser looking ?

the stress is on!

Well its official, the house is officially off the market and sold.. Now its scrambling time to find a place to live. I have been looking high and low for a place that I can afford on my own and let me tell you it is stressful and hard. plus being on a time frame and trying to work.. YIkes many sleepless nights...

As many of you probably don't know .. I have no idea what to look for in an apartment besides clean, safe neighborhood what is included in rent etc...

 But then it got me to think how am I going to furnish an apartment, I can barely cover the rent. But that is something that will be on the back burner for now. All I know is I just need to find a place and be able to move in as quickly as I can so that way when this month is up I won't be scrambling.

I have the support of my friends and family, and if it wasn't for them I'd just end up on the streets.  You really know who your friends are when you are going through a rough time. Even though I wish i would have one good thing go for me that is not the case at all 

short post today I am going to look at apartments