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So I really haven't done a what's on my mind post lately. I usually just say what happened the day before or what's going on during the week. 

I know that most people would be like oh "you work for Disney." Why yes I do. I love it and sometimes just don't like it, We work crazy hours, there are more days where I'm constantly just sleeping my days away because  knowing that I have work at night again just makes me want to sleep some more I've been drinking a lot more water because there  are barely time when I am working to get water unless its on my break. 

Yes we get into the parks for free, is it worth it yeah I know that I meet so many people everyday and I get to work with my crazy fun loving cast members. But lately everyone is just stressed out and or tired because we are stretching ourselves to the limit of our crazy peak hours. 

Somedays though are harder than others with being away from the one place and or state that you felt at home in and starting a new life is still difficult some days.  I had my nieces call me yesterday and I just teared up because I haven't seen them since before I moved. 
I guess you can say that I am a little home sick and that I really want to come back home for a couple of days. To see all my family and friends.

I know that I am doing the best that I can when I am here in Florida and I know that many people are proud ,but what else do I really have to offer?

 Stay awesome and be nice to people.

when crazy things happen

Talk about a crazy night at work last night. It went by fast which usually happens because we are generally always busy no matter the time unless you have a parade which happens all the time at the kingdom. If you are wondering what the kingdom is it's Magic Kingdom, I just like to use Kingdom, I guess to make me sound so much better then I really am. 

So last night while I was working on Finish and Connect it's the last thing that the guests usually see, well we were trying to take a part a piece of equipment, and thinking that I turned off the water well low and behold it wasn't off, and you can probably guess what happens next, yup water shooting out everywhere, by far the most funniest thing ever. I stood their laughing and I had guests laughing too, one guest is like I would be totally embaressed, yet I really wasn't embarresed at all. I found it to be humerous in every way, I mean why wouldn't you think something was that funny to not laugh at  yourself? Sometimes having a good laugh is what you need in order to be happy in one aspect of your life. 

I've been learning a lot about myself in the last couple of month, since I moved from Illinois , worked hard to find a new job, that some days I hate , others days it's good. I know there are still hard days where I miss the home life in Illinois, but I know that if I didn't take this journey that I would regret not going. I know that my friends have been slim to none back home, I guess that comes with the territory of you just picked up and left. But yet I gave you all a warning that I wasn't going to be here.  I guess I can tell that I know who my true friends are, that's over and done with.

I haven't been able to really write down a lot of things lately and I don't know if it's because of writers block or else maybe it's just I don't have that urge to write. I know that I love to write and I love being able to do my blog every week. But I am wondering if I want to take a break from it for a while? I've thought about this for some time and I don't really care If I am getting followers and or comments, generally this is just for me as an escape. 
I don't know much about working on the actual site or the background to make it any better , because I am just a simple girl who likes simple things. 

When has simple  ever become just complicated?  There are so many people out there that want simple this and simple that, but yet they still want an agenda of who to date and what the person should look like. Thats a whole other thing that I will get into in another blog post.

Stay awesome and be nice to people.

Why I miss performing .

Hi Lovelies, So today I have been doing nothing but brainstorming for my next couple of blog post. I spend a great deal of time writing out what I am thinking and elaborating on certain topics. I have to say that It's been really fun working on these blogs a little bit longer.

But today is one of those days where I miss performing, It's been a part of my life for many years. I get that rush and joy when performing, granted I am a little hard on myself when it comes to performing, but overall I still enjoy it. 

heres a brief sample of my last performance. I did this for a retirement home that loved Frank Sinatra, It was by far the best time I had performing, and It gave me some time show my passion to sing.
 I hope you enjoy. Just in Time Frank Sinatra, performed by: Mary Kay Bozec  October 2014

Like I said I am not perfect, but I just love performing, It's a good time for me to reflect on where I was going. 

I know that most of you know that I work for Disney , and Yes I've been looking for music jobs for Disney but noting yet. But I am excited to audition for candle light choir soon. That will be a fun experience. I am hoping for the best. 

Time to go and finish my book that I am reading, I hope you all have a lovely day . Always remember be nice to people. 

Have Courage and Be Kind

So I went to hang out with some of my friends who work at Disney with me. We went out to the waterpark and then to dinner and then we decided to go see the new Cinderella movie. 
By far the greatest movie ever. 

They stuck with the story and It was very well played with the actors and and actresses, some really funny parts , and for me being a musician, I have to say that the music was awesome. Just over all a fantastic movie. Would I see it again, Oh Yeah !

I have to say that I hate it when I get sick at work, it all kind of happened quickly at work and I got sent home early, now I know that It shouldn't of been that bad, and I am still trying to figure out what exactly got my sick I think it was cross between exhaustion and food poisoning.

But with enough sleep and water and just relaxing all day I am starting to feel better. As much as I hate to leave work early, it was about time I had too, especially if I was throwing up . Yes I know too much information but I always feel as though just sometimes sharing what's going on helps. 

In my life I always sort of live a busy life and with driving all over the place in Florida that I've already put three thousand miles on my car since the new year. I guess I do 1,000 miles a month or more depending on if I am driving or not. It depends. I know that When you live in Florida that is all that you do is just drive and keep driving no matter what. 

Like I said in my last post , I am  a lot more laid back and happier being down here. New opportunities and friendships while still remaining with my old friends 


I know that this is a short post , but I may be back on my feet but I am going to take a nap before work. 

Have a nice day and be nice to people 

and always have courage and be kind 

I'm in a happy place

Hey guys! So i've been meaning to put up this blog post on my day off today , but I decided to go and enjoy some sunshine and warm weather. Yes I know I decided to throw that in your face ( if you live where its cold). 

I know that my days off are really slim to none, and they're times when I don't do anything all day besides lay in bed or answer emails, or blog or read a book.  As you probably have seen in my other posts on here that I've been trying to become more active, by walking more and drinking way less pop then I usually do. It was pretty bad to the point I'd probably have 4-5 cans of pop or a large pop from somewhere. Now I can say that I've switched to water, and eating smaller meals, unless I forget to eat which happens sometimes. 

Well today I was walking around one of the parks at Disney because my mom wanted to go. and I noticed that I've been hiking up my shorts more often . I know that doesn't seem like much to anyone , but it was so weird to feel. Granted it wasn't a huge hike up like the Steve Urkel "Did I Do That?" But Hopefully all of this extra activity will pay off soon.

I am in a sort of love hate relationship with my job at this point, I like the people I work with , i hate the hours.. I can get a lot of things done during the day if I am closing . But then I am always sleeping my day away. Granted sometimes you just have too because, Why be super tired at work.  I like to write a lot some days but when I am tired I just stay in bed and read a book or watch something on youtube. I know that isn't really " using my time wisely." But If it gets me to relax then heck I'll do what I can. 

Today is my best friends birthday , and I feel so sad that I can't come back to Illinois to celebrate. I know that she'll have a great day and that She knows that she'll always be my best friend.  I miss her like noones business she was my coworker for 6 years , and We are two peas in a pod.  We have been through a lot together and she really is the person who got me back into reading books . I know that is a lot to do, but I mean I love reading , getting lost in different genres , passing some time standing in line at the parks, my mom thinks, it stupid that I bring a book every where I go, I'm like you never know if we get stopped somewhere I need something to do besides being on my phone wasting battery? why don't i expand my mind by reading. 

I am at my local bookstore blogging because one it's too hot to sit in our home ,because I can't open up my windows because we have no screen so there's no point in me trying to circulate warm air. Plus I like to walk around the book store and see if there are any new books. that catch my eye, I usually write them down, and then save up for next time. Granted I have a huge pile of books to get through on my shelve.  Where this place is located is an outdoor mall about 20 mins or more away I never really timed it, but I also love going around the mall and seeing what is out there. They have just about every store that I normally go into , but like I said I never buy anything until I really have too. 

I've been thinking of how my life has been and where it's going and you know the journey is kind of fun, I mean I am making friends down here , meeting new people, yet I still havent really gone out and done much. I know the introvert me is like no stay home read a book enjoy your alone time. And I am ok with that. being alone I love myself enough that being lonely is ok. I know that most people will never understand that  and probably never will. I know that I can be social too which is fine I am at a happy medium between the two. 

I feel bad for my mom though because most of the time she'll go out to a state park, and or go out somewhere or else she'll be at home all day and not even go out. I feel bad that she doesn't do a lot, but that's her way of doing what she wants. She has a friend coming down on Wednesday and she is going over to her other friends house for a couple days, and She's like sorry I would stay home. I told her don't worry about it I can handle the animals, besides I am usually just working anyways, and or sleeping, I'll just take over your bed for the cats sake, because they will come into my room and bellow because mom isn't home, so to make them comfortable I'll sleep with them .

Well that is all for now I hope everyone has a wonderful day I am going to enjoy this beatuiful florida weather before I have to be at work, and remeber be nice to people.

Life choices

All  right I know that I am technically supposed to be resting before, work tonight but yet I find myself in a restless state. I've done all my things that I needed to get done before work, the only thing really to do is make my dinner and get changed for work. I don't mind that I keep switching from opening to closings, but I have a feeling that my body is not taking it pretty well. It doesn't know when to actually let me sleep , I find myself sleeping less during the night because I am usually still working, and then when I come home from work during the afternoon, I find it that I fall asleep earlier because i am so tired. So dear body please get your act together I would greatly appreciate it so that way I can actually get some decent sleep, and not a couple hours here and there. 

So this weekend was a real busy one that's for sure. I had to open all weekend, which isn't terrible at all just kind of switching my schedule around to make me feel a little weird coming home when it's light out and going to work when it's dark. A little backwards, but it was fun to see all the morning crew who I really never get to see that much unless I am bumping them out so they could go home. Anyways  My mom had won free tickets to go see Elton John in Concert. Granted I wasn't a huge fan of elton John when I was younger , but I still think he is a great artist and piano player. My mom and I had some really great seats where we could get a real good picture of him. Over all it was a fun night and I think my mom had a good time too I mean you can't beat the price that we paid which of course was nothing. I believe that these tickets were over $150.00 and for two your just looking at $300.00.  So not bad. I will have pictures to follow they are all on my phone currently and I'll upload them to here soon. 
More pictures to follow I just wanted to at least get some on here and not over bare you with photos and more photos. The concert lasted over 2 hours with no intermission, then he came back on to sign some autographs and then did his encore of his lion king songs. Overall it was worth the not sleeping when I got home because i have to be at work super early again for another opening. Would I say I regretted  that decision Heck no it's Elton John how can you say no to seeing Elton John for free I might add. 

 In my last post you've probably seen how angry I was or seemed, and just overly done with trying to please Steven to the best that I could being in a long distance relationship. Well we decided to end our two year on and off relationship for good. I am not really sad about, I know that we both deserve better. We were just stressed out because of being so far away from each other, and starting the blame game of leaving and what not. When in all reality I wanted to leave and start this new adventure in my life, and I know that many people were like how can you not think of the others. I kept telling them you can either watch me go or the road stops here. We all have fear when we start out on a new journey these fears can because of not having a job.. to not knowing the outcome. I think I just got tired of him always saying that you left and that he was "Ok" with it , when really I don't think he was . I understand that life can be hard and sometimes putting your own needs before others is what you need to do. I knew that i still had some issue on the cheating and yes I did mention that. It's all about what's going to happen when we are really together and he goes and cheats again. I've always had this fear in the back of my mind that "once a cheater always will be a cheater." I know that is difficult to mention and go through because how does that really make the person who got cheated on to really trust someone again. Over time I think we could be friends , but what I've learned over the last 3 months of being away is that you can only do so much to make something work , before it breaks you completely and trying to fix it is no more. 

So I now look to my future as a happy lovable introvert who loves to write and read many books, and laugh everyday because you can only make yourself happy, do not depend on others to make you happy. 

Stay Awesome  and BE NICE TO PEOPLE!

I am just tired of being stressed out

So I really haven't had the chance to blog much since the last time that I've blogged. I've had a lot of things happen since my last post. Some good, some bad. and some I just take the time to think about on my ride home from work. 

Well I've made it through a month of working for Disney and no It's not a bad thing It was just an exciting thing to experience , because I know a lot of people have been through it and within a month they decide that they want to get recasted , but sometimes you have to wait 6 months to transfer. I've had good days and some days where it was just a rough shift due to many different things that could of gone wrong, like losing your voice for three days, and just messing up drinks, which happens because of handwritings and what not, sometimes when we get a steady stream of people our handwritings get a little iffy. I love the guest who will say I want a decaf no classic soy no whip cream Mocha, ok well that is all fine and dandy BUT PLEASE GIVE US THE SIZE FIRST. Otherwise what happens is they go that whole phrase and we ask what size and we have to say ok so decaf and no classic and I'm sorry what else? We are not trying to make your life any harder it's just goes a little easier if you tell us the size and whether you want it hot or cold. That also helps because then we don't have to waste our cups and our sharpies, and our patience. 

So I've said in my blog posts in the past that I am not good in relationships or at least that I do try, but lately it's been a rough especially in long distance. The conversations that I have with Steven, have been a little rough the last couple of days, and It's all because I said that I was concerned about his habit of smoking pot, because It does get pretty bad some days where its really needed. But We were starting to plan on moving in with each other once he came down here to Florida, but It got all ugly , because I said I was worried about bills being paid and the outcome of his habit. I don't need to have anything like this on a record which I don't have one but if I did I wouldn't be working for Disney , and I am sorry But I am not jeopardizing my job for his habit. Plus he used me having pop as an addiction and honestly I barely have had any pop maybe one a week now it's all in the mind set really. I am trying to have a healthier life now by drinking more water and walking more and enjoying what is around me. 

Yes if you are just reading this post with out reading past post yes this is the same man that cheated on me because he needs to have the more physical side. I get that but It hard in a long distance relationship. 

I always have this saying that I always say or have said within the last couple hours is you need to love yourself before you can love another person in a relationship. If you don't love who you are or who you want to become, then you really shouldn't be in a relationship with another person. I know that sounds a little harsh, but I mean COME ON! If you can't make yourself happy when your alone , then how can you make yourself happy when you're with someone who you want to be with. It shouldn't be a stressful relationship. I know not all relationships are easy or less stressful, but when you've communicated and you are still having an issue because either one or the other or maybe both are being strong headed, is it worth to go through all that stress. I don't know what else to do , I'm at a dead end. It tends to be just a pain to deal with and I am tired of always seeming like the bad guy, because I am sorry I don't stay at home and do nothing I go out and explore even if i am broke I'll explore meet new people, make someones day by just saying hi or if I am in a clothing store and I see someone looking in the mirror holding up a garment I'll say that will look really great on you! I find it that when I separate myself from a part of my life, that hasn't been a positive one for the most part, I find my true happiness, and yes granted sometimes I don't know what that will be on a given day, but at least I try to do better. 


If anyone has any ideas of what can help. Please I would like your opinion or solution or something else to try.