So I am thinking about redesigning this page, But I have no idea where to start? Any ideas out there in blogger world? I don't know what I want ! I hate that feeling.
Anyways being engaged is still very weird for me ? A good kind of weirdness, I wake up and feel like a better person because I look forward to coming home to that special person. I have a question for all you bloggers out there! Where do you generally start with wedding planning? My friend has been helping me with plans, and I feel stressed. If you wondering about a date YES we set a date, We will be married on October 17th 2015, in Florida on the beach.
My friends are getting married next year and the year after, I have no idea when my second friends wedding is and I am hoping that it's not in the fall or even in the same month of as october, otherwise there will have to be some time changes. But I am not worrying about that now I can at least enjoy being engaged for a while longer.
Anyways a short post tonight! Im going to enjoy a night with my future hubby! Bye!!
I couldn't think of a better way of putting that title. Maybe I'll come up with a better one I thought of saying I'm getting hitched , but I felt to country for that. Not saying that I don't love the country I do.. It's my favorite place to go.
I am beyond excited I never expected it coming. But WOW!!! I thought I would end up being the crazy cat lady and have a million cats or dogs.
I have to say that our relationship is backwards but that's what I love about it. You know how men are usually the one who would forget important dates?!? (sterotypical). Nope that would be ME !! hehe I never really thought of what the date was because I've been so wrapped up with everything around me with taking care of the family and working and having a social life as well. That the days seem to run together now.
In our own little way steven proposed when we were just sitting around taking a break from packing up his life to move to another apartment. It was very sweet and romantic in our own way.
I know that many of you are probably thinking shouldn't you be living together before you get married??? Well the answer is generally yes, but when you have other responsibilities that have to take precendent over your own life you just make it work with what you have to offer.
I know getting engaged just when you hit the big one year is kind of how you say a little eager ,but once you know you just know and that you will always be happy. I am truly happy I'm more calmed when it comes to things and that I know everything seems to be a lot , but it comes down to just the two of you and you can't make everyone happy. Which is true, its hard to please everyone you just have to deal with it and there will be people who come and go as they please and that is ok in my book.
Lets just say that I survived working 11 days straight! Boy do I not want to do that again! It's not that I'm grateful for them considering me to work at a different store, but I have to say that I missed my store the most. I've been disrespected before ,but I will never go back not even if they paid me salary to do it.
I've been so busy this week and weekend I barely felt as though i did a lot and yet I feel so tired. thats what I get for not being able to sleep in because my body was so used to the fact of getting up at 5 or 6 am every day for the last 11 days. It was nice to have three days off , but that made me realize all the things that I've put on hold because I barely have/had the time to think straight.
I know that I generally don't say much about people or that I need to speak my mind , but there are just thinks that really start to tear me apart. I know that your supposed to love everyone or give respect to others, but lately I feel like I am being used more and more. No matter how much I can love a person I still feel not quite myself. That or I have gotten used to the fact that everyone has me going in so many different places that I never know what to do , because In the end I always seem to disappoint. I mean that is what life is you can't always be perfect, you can't always be happy or make others happy.
I do have some really good news! I finally after having this teaching lessons job, I finally have a lesson student!!!!!! Let the work being !!! I know that patience and waiting and praying everyday that it would happen eventually sometimes God has a plan. He always does for everyone. It just takes time to do it.
I feel like I'm starting to shut down again, with my emotions and being able to open up and its no ones fault other then my own.
I just feel as though I am just going through the motions again. I am happy to have Steven in my life , but when we had dinner on sunday night , I just felt like I was seeing a different person. And I didn't like what I saw. I know there are things that he has to do to calm down and what not, but sometimes I just wish that he wouldn't , but I know that I'm not gonna tell him that he shouldn't he's an adult and he can do what he wants. I don't want to sabotage what we have because I know that this relationship is what is keeping the both of us sane.
I know that we both live busy lives and that we do tend to forget about messages to each other, but I feel as though I'm playing the waiting game with him. I know he's busy I am busy too with work, taking care of mom, teaching lessons, going to rehearsals, and working out when I can , but I do take at least a minute or two to send something to him, to show that I think about him or that I miss him , but I rarely get anything in return. Sometimes it makes me feel as though I'm not thought of. I guess that can be a little selfish in a way and I understand that I can sometimes be selfish, but I am trying. I'm not perfect, nor would I want to be. I just wish it was easier. Granted we only see each other once a week, with our schedules.
I don't know I think I need to slow my life down a bit, I feel as though I am moving faster then I really want to go at this moment.
I hope you all enjoy your week Happy Monday!
