And the News just keeps rolling

That is probably as creative as I will ever get tonight. 
It's almost the New Year for a new me sort to speak. I've been apart of this organization for two years, but I have been teaching for longer than that. I guess this part of the post could go along with the recent post on frustrations. 

I know that I've been struggling with teaching, because I put myself in those positions. I love music and I like to teach, but I really don't think the way people see me, think that I can do. Do I make things a little harder on me , yeah It comes with the learning disability that I've had since I was Little, Probably why school was so hard for me, yet I survived.

Others have also said that I need to reinvent myself, and that I am just slipping by the cracks of life. It's the point to the fact of Yes I work hard everyday I fill out countless job applications, I try to be the best that I can be everyday, yet today I felt as though my best wasn't good enough.  The constant nagging about everything that I do wrong in my life  is just enough, if someone starts with me I always say just "don't" I don't want to hear it anymore. just Leave me be, before it gets worse. 

I guess tomorrow is a new day. Wish me luck on my interview tomorrow.

Stay Awesome Possums and Be Nice to People!

Frustration

I  know that many people get on your nerves with just about everything. And let me tell you sometimes enough is just enough!
I've been in Florida for about three weeks now, and I have a couple job interviews coming up in the next two weeks, and I am also teaching private lessons for voice. Of course the down fall with that is I do not have a piano. I need to buy one soon, but I want to see if this will work out in the end.

But going back to the job stuff, I am just tired of hearing my mom say you need to find a job, you need to not be spending money... the list can go on. I am sorry that I am spending money on gas for the car, my insurance's and just daily life things that I need? 
I am so frustrated with her, it's like no matter what I do nothing is going to be good for her. She doesn't want me to apply to another McDonalds, but that might just give me a job right away so then I can at least start making money and save for my own place and what not. It's like I don;t know what to do anymore , I keep telling her about my interviews and she has a fit. Ok Mom what do you want me to do not work? 

Not being social is really getting to me too, I know that it's hard to meet new people in a different place, I know a couple people here already, but it's hard when your mother throws a fit when you are just trying to make friends by going out and being social and that I am not home to sit around and watch tv and or be on the computer looking for jobs. 

It's like I can't win anywhere lately. I still have to find a church , because I need to go back into church it might help me out during the week and meeting new people. maybe I'll even join the choir.

Sorry that this post is all of my frustrations but I just need it out and open .

I also get a little frustrated with being in a long distance relationship. I know that Steven probably feels the same way. Granted being over 1200 miles can cause some issue, but our joyful skype dates usually last about 2 hours long on a good day or night depending on the day. with our time difference it makes it a little hard on me because I am always an hour ahead of Chicago time. So It will be 12 his time and 1 in the morning my time and will skype til about 2:30 or 3:30 depending on the time. If I do well on these interviews. It will be difficult to have our skype dates. What is some other things that we can do besides writing, calling and or texting, and or sending gifts just because. 

All right my lovely follower's I need to finish up my lesson plans for my student. 

Stay awesome possums ! and be nice to people!

I've been creating new blogs

I know that is probably something you don't want to hear from me or should I say write.

I just feel as though I get to cluttered with all the things that I want to post. Plus it was getting annoying for me to keep using different blog sites and trying to remember what password was to what.

So I deleted the other one and made two more on this email to keep it so I can go from one to other . As to keeping it simple.

This is my personal blog one that I share as my trials and errors, and then I have a book club one for just writing blog reviews of the books that I read , and then I also made a musicians life one for my private lessons the trial and errors of planning lesson plans and what works and what doesn't work .

I guess I need more time on my hand . I am still working on trying to find another job. I do have to say that I have an interview the day after my birthday, so I guess I can say Happy early birthday to me?

Hopefully it goes all well and all this preparing comes in handy. As of right now I am going to go and keep celebrating Christmas with my mom and finish my lesson plans a little later tonight or tomorrow.


So Merry Christmas , Happy Holidays. I hope that you spend time with the people that you love most. I know I am missing my sweetheart because long distance is rough! but if we can pull through all of this and still be there for each other then we can do whatever we want.

Just keep swimming

Everyone has a story of their own whether if they know that or not. Sometimes it takes a while for a person to see what their story or life entails.

It's with a heavy heart that I write out this blog post I lost another friend yesterday morning to suicide. As I am probably still in a little denial and still wondering just "why" we all come to ask "why me " or "why did it have to be her time." Sometimes we will never know it's hard to wrap your head around it and make sure everything is ok .

I know that staying positive is what always needs to happen when something like this happens, it can really mess up the way you think. Suicide isn't the answer I know there are people out their who can help you if you just listen to them. I know many people don't realize they have that option or if the medicine doesn't work , then find someone who you trust and can talk to you about anything.


Even though I won't be able to make the wake and funeral because It's really expensive to come back to Chicago on an air plane with it being the holidays.

So I've been here for about two weeks and I finally have a interview for a car dealership, I am excited and hopefully it will work out in the end. Of Course it's the day after my birthday so I guess it's a good birthday present too.


Short post today I hope everyone has a great Christmas.

Well we made it to Florida .

 

IWell we made it to Florida . I am currently blogging from my iPhone . I had to get a new phone with a different carrier because my old carrier didn't have any signal anywhere it was nuts . 

Mom and I have been here for over 24 hours and we are still just wiped out . Most likely drom the drive and constant traveling and what not . I'm sure everything will turn out fine it's just getting used to everything around here . 

Here are some pictures along the way to Florida we tried stopping at different places in Kentucky Tennessee and Georgia before beginning the decent into our new home . 

end of an era and starting a new beginning

I can't believe that It's about that time where I am gonna be leaving for a new life. I know that it's gonna be hard and what not, but as my old band director used to say "If it were easy , everybody would be doing it."

I know that I will be missing a lot of people on my way down to Florida. But I am confident that I will see them again real soon.  It's been a stressful week to say the least. But I was so happy that it was finally over.  I am excited and sad at the same time I feel as though It's just gonna be a long day and it will most likely get stressed out a little bit. 

I'm excited to be traveling I haven't really had a long road trip in my car besides going to spring field. 

I can't wait to get into Tennesse , because will be in NASHVILLE. I am so excited to just be in Nashville , I mean I do love country music , and I always been wanting to go to Nashville I feel like it would be a great expierence. 

I know that this is going to be a real short post since we are going to be leaving for breakfast soon . and then we are going to be on the road. So I will most likely be blogging either from my phone or through my computer at the hotels. 

But see you soon !