when is it going to be my turn to be that happy

 this is my sister's winter guard group. this will explain a lot 

I am running down on my faith here today , because I'm on a journey to find a new job and with the economy it's been hard for me , plus my whole teaching lessons fell through, I haven't had a lesson in over a month :-/. I was really excited for this one job that I found through my friend who is a teacher she needs a colorguard and winterguard instructor. Can I just say that I was totally excited about it, I know that it had nothing to do with my major, but I have to tell you I actually did winterguard in high school, i have to say it was the best time of my life, to be able to show people out there what you can do while throwing equipment around, let me tell you its a good time and yes you do get a lot of bruises but i call them battle wounds. 

But when I told my mom I might have this job and she said why do you want to travel two hours away for a job. Its a teaching JOB !!!! it's something different and I want to make a difference or change in my life. Why can't you expect that I want to change something in my life and yet you back down on me saying that I will just end up being in McDonalds for the rest of my life. I'm sorry that I will never make you happy. But to show your bitterness to me and saying that I will never make it kind of hurts coming from a family member let alone my own mother. I've been trying for months for a job but  I know god has a plan But i wish he would let me in on his big plans.

anyways I'm off to work maybe my coworker can get a good laugh out of me. 

Love you all. 

Stay positive everything will work out in the end. I Hope .

Catching up breather !

Well I am hoping that these postive thoughts keep coming! I finally heard back from a job post back in December for a customer service representative job in Mishawaka In. Well I don't have an interview yet, but they are still in the looking for resumes part, which I will hopefully know soon! It's about 2 in a half hour drive from where I live in Illinois. If I got the job I would of course move out to be closer to work, because I don't really want to commute 4-6 hours depending on traffic every day and then work 8 hours or more depending on how many hours. But on the plus side I'll have benefits included. I know that I've been patiently waiting for something like this. I am truly excited and I can't wait to hopefully start a new life and finally get back into the music field as much as possible. 

I just love that all the hard work that goes into where I work now just is now paying the bills, between student loans, and cell phone , health insurance . it's adding up to a lot of money that I don't have at all. It kind of sucks ,but I know if I am patient it will work out in the end right?

I finally went back to church yesterday "Oh My" did it feel nice! I haven't been able to go back since Christmas because of the car situation some days I have it some days I don't , but I mostly don't. but whatever it happens. I'm just glad to be going back. I missed singing with my church friends and getting to hang out with my voice teacher on Sundays and thursdays. It's what helps me feel normal and like I have a life outside of work .

I hope you all have a wonderful Weekend. 

cookie Recipe swap ! It was really FUN

So My friend Cami, Sent me a wonderful recipe and a cute gift wrapped into one. Her and I both enjoy animals and I love to bake and cook. I kid you not when I opened my gift I used it right away. 

I got a apron with many different cats on it. I love animals and have 5 cats at home right now. talk about CUTE!!!!!

I also got a recipe for thumbprint Cookies 

They sound yummy I can't wait to try it out!!1

Thank you so much Cami! I loved it!!

lazy Monday

Brrr... its cold I hope everyone is staying safe out there in this cold weather. I know many of my friends who are teachers are enjoying the snow days! and my friends who are still in school are enjoying them as well.

I know that I rarely blog anymore and it's just life gets in the way of blogging for me, plus I rarely know what to talk about. So recently from my last post It was my birthday this week , not so bad of a day minus I was really bored because having one car is kind of annoying to have to wait for the other person to get home. but overall it was a long day. I think I was up til 3 in the morning the next day, granted it wasn't because we were drinking in all honesty I actually didn't drink that much a beer in a half! not to shabby. Besides it's not all about drinking . So I turned 26 and yet it feels like I'm older then how I actually look. This year I want to be more free I don't want to have to worry about every little detail . Generally I am a very carefree person when it comes to doing things like going out. I rarely go out as it is unless it's to work and or the bookstore or library. I know doesn't seem like much. 

This past year has been trial and errors and maybe some of it good. I know that many people were surprised that I was engaged, Lets just say that didn't last long, and I have to say that it was the best decision of my life. 

you want to be with someone who will how you say nicely not drop you when you are your lowest and say "oh yeah you'll be fine" and then go off saying that i need something or relief, Yeah you guessed it i picked a winner . 

I think with my blog title Everyday is a journey is because everyday is a journey and it's gods way to say hey keep going I give you the hard road so that you can achieve the greatness that I know you have. 

 I love my family yes we are going through a hard time and that the relationship may not be a great one but family is family they are the only family you got. 

My friends are wonderful I know most of them Live far away ,but that doesn't mean that we will never get to see each other and I know that my true friends will be there for me, I can count them on one hand. 

 They always say that you can count your true friends on one hand. 

I absolutely love pinterest. It's a serious addiction 

but I constanly laugh about my style board , because it's all these clothes that I would love to be in ,but never come close to it, but hey one can dream right.

anyways im going to go finish making dinner, is it bad that i eat alone when my mom never wants to eat with me ? Oh well her loss tonight .

They say it's my birthday today!

Another year another age, Lets just say that this past year has been a roller coaster of happy times and times where I thought it was just horrible! I know that we all take news lightly or heavily as we can take. I know that I've changed a lot this year, but I never lost sight of who I was no matter how many people told me that I've changed, in all reality the reason why they saw a change because I wasn't taking ant crap from anybody.

So I'm twenty six as exciting as it sounds to be a year older, I know that my life has been going in circles, from being engaged to not being engaged, to having amazing friends and family members to keep me laughing an smiling,
So cheers to everyone and I hope that 2014 is a great year for everyone.