To all the readers out there what do you prefer?

Do you prefer books or ebooks? Now before you all get angry about how ebooks have taken over our beloved libraries and book stores, because we all know that there are barely any of them left. 

So I come with this question of which do you prefer, and my answer is both, now before you get all in a tizzy over my answer, it shouldn't matter what we like and don't like, come to think of it on how we literally blame technology taking away something so precious as a reading from a physical book, when in all reality you are still reading it may just be in a different way. 

I know that when i am in a rush to get to work because we all have those days where time gets away from you and you realize that you still have to get to work on time. That's where I love it for e books to come into play , because I can just use my phone and read on break depending on if i have the time for it, depends on if i have a45 minute break or an hour break , because 15 minutes are nothing anymore mainly to throw something down your throat and go to the bathroom, and hopefully you can eat something good on the way home from work.

I am a book reader, I love having a good book, It makes for a great night in, i mean come on pair it with some good wine or beer if your not a wine drinker, and put some background music on and a blanket and somewhere comfy and you are set for a great night in.

Has anyone ever did a book club??? Is that so out of style now...  I never see it being done anymore I would love to do something like that with a bunch of my friends get together once or twice a month or more and have a sit down and talk about the book or books that we have read for that month and then just catch up. 

so I had a first date tonight...

I never thought that I would be so nervous to be going on a date . It's been a while since I've actually had a "first date." Over all I think that it went well, yet I know that I have a  lot of things to take care of with not only myself but with my mom. I know that isn't an excuse to put myself out there , but It did come up in conversation tonight , because well I am a caregiver, whether  it be for something small as a low blood sugar , to making sure that mom eats so she can get her chemo treatment. 

I know that the right guy is out there somewhere, but I always have this fear of when I say that I am a full time worker and I am also a full time caregiver which seems like I have no spare time, which is true most days. I barely hold a 4 hour sleep schedule a night , depending on my job and if mom is having issues when I come home. 

Why do most men always assume that you want to have sex on the first date. Is that what most men think about ?  I mean honestly I didn't wear anything that was revealing because I was actually running errands all day and didn't even bother changing into something halfway decent. I mean a tank top and jeans and  gym shoes because I was walking around a lot today. 

We talked about future plans which honestly I didn't really look that far into the future, because one I don't want to make plans when I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. I mean there are so many things that can happen in an instant.  I know that it sounds selfish but with having a lot on my plate I just want to take it one day at a time. 

 

Am I overreactting ?

So as in my last post I had mentioned that my mom had surgery. So I had most of my family come down for a visit to help out with mom's recovery, but yet only made me stress out even more. 
I know that I am way over my head with trying to help out and un pack and trying to not get sick and make my mom sick too. And I let somethings slide between my fingers because it happens. 

I know that I screw up occasionally , but then also I did just sort of get handed this job of being a care giver and I haven't quite gotten it under my belt just yet. 

This next part I'm still having a hard time to get over that hump of I am ok. My sister had gotten into an argument with me while I was getting ready for work and in the heat of the moment of just purely angry she has said " if mom falls in this apartment and dies I am blaming you 100 %." Harsh huh?  

 I understand that it was because she was mad , and we normally say things that we don't mean, when we get mad, but I just don't know what to do, it took me a while to calm down before work , because I couldn't tell if I was upset, or pissed off. 

I just don't want to live in fear of my family  hating me more that mom might end up getting worse because I know that they will put all the blame on me over every little thing possible. 

Am I over reacting ? Am I looking into this more then I should be? Thoughts please.

update

I know that I haven't been around a lot lately, and I am sorry about that , I've been busy with taking care of mom and working such crazy hours. 

So I believe the last time I really said anything about my moms health it was a couple of posts ago, well an update is in the near future. 

Mom had surgery about a week ago, and is now in recovery and getting the help she needs for when she is not at home.  everything went well surgery wise, I am just hoping that she'll get to come home soon. I know that cats and dog miss her very much because they do not leave my side when I am home . 


I've had a lot of things happen in the last couple of days, from my computer breaking , after 6 years so I have to go look into a new computer , which I am not looking forward too. I mean aren't computers supposed to last a decent amount of time??? 


So if you know of a good brand please let me know in the comments, I would greatly appreciate it.

I also bought a new camera because my other one wasn't doing the things that I needed it to do.  So there is  that too. I am pretty happy about my purchase and I am excited to be able to use a better camera. and finally get some really great pictures. 

more posts coming soon.

 

What's on my mind of the whole dating scene lately.

I know many people try the online dating scene ,because they don't make time outside of their busy lives to do it. I feel as though we've become a world of lets just sit in front of our computers and talk to people that we don't know?. Have I tried online dating yes, did I like it, kind of Eh.. about it's mainly all about the booty calls/ hooking up.. It's not something i'd want to do . 

It's been about 6 months since I've been in a relationship , and now finally getting over the cheating and moving on with my love life. I feel as though I may be ready to date and just being able to find that one guy who would understand the life that I am in right now with everything going on will still see me as a person. 

I know that dating would seem like lots of work and what not, and I know that putting myself out there would open a lot of doors for me, but I think as of right now I just need to focus on what my mom needs and then focus on my health because right now I am slacking at feeling better, to the point I called into work today because I had a migraine that wouldn't go away after taking migraine medicine and a sore throat. I didn't want to be around people and get them sick and I know I would be miserable. 


If you wait patiently and it will show up when you least expect it.  That's what I keep hearing. 

I am going back to bed I will blog some more later on during the week. 

Good night!

Everyone keeps asking how I lost the...

Weight! Ever since I gave up my job working at Mcdonalds. I honestly should of left a long time ago, but I am the person who always tries to find a job first before quitting that way I don't have a month or two of not working or making money somehow. 

Anyways since I left said job, I don't eat as much fast food now, I think when I worked there it was just there quick and easy. But now that I work for Disney and am walking a lot more I generally get in at least 4 miles a day depending on what I am doing. But even for me that is a lot of walking. 

I bought a fitbit in December and I have lost about 10- 15 pounds,I've been drinking more water then pop , and then eating a lot smaller portions. I am not in control of everything but I work hard here are some pictures to prove that doing a little goes a long way. Ok so the three pictures are as follows from the fall of 2014 ,summer 2014, and present 2015

I don't know exactly what I have been doing besides what I have been doing what I said above, there are some days that I feel sluggish probably the lack of sleep and what not, but some times I just don't sleep. 

I've had friends that I haven't seen in forever and family that notice the weight loss and most of the time I don't pay attention besides noticing some of my clothes don't fit. Now I think tha I went down two sizes in costuming which is a super big deal because costuming numbers are outrageous. 

I haven't updated my clothes yet to fit this new body, because one I HATE TO SHOP.. lately all I have been wearing is workout capris and loose fitted t shirts and tanks. When your mostly doing what I have been doing like unpacking and going to work it's a quick let me throw my costume over this and it will be ok.

I know that I should always sort of look "good" when going out or as I call it presentable, but majority of the people that I see are in exactly what I am wearing...

Time to get ready for work. Hope all is well with everyone here in blog land. I'll post more soon !! Can I just say that it feels so good to be back here on the blog after what seems like a month in a half..

I know that I really want to sign up for a 5k but my only issue right now is making sure I have the money for bills and what not but I know that I will be able to do it soon.