Day off of work SAY WHA?

I know that I should really be getting ready to sell the house and going through all my things and to get rid of a lot because I  still have no clue on where I am going. But every time I get a day off of work I'm usually doing things that need to get done for myself, one thing is blogging I can spend almost all day at a coffee shop or book store just finding the time to write. I miss writing. I used to do it every day and then when my life got a little complicated, I had a hard time getting back into the swing of things. So as I sit at the book store drinking some water and having a snack which isn't healthy at all (double Chocolate Cupcake). I couldn't decide if i wanted that or just a cookie, But I felt I deserve a cupcake. 

Today I decided to leave my hair down, will see how long that will last, I already have a couple bobby pins in to put my hair back so that way I can write this blog post. I also decided to some makeup on as well, not that i didn't need it or anything, but I had a feeling that i wanted to do it today, yet I don't go all out i just work on my eyes and that's about it.

I know that I've been down what seems like many roads before and I feel as though the relationship road I've gone down way to many times. I know that I've been single at least for a while now, becuase my ex and I weren't really dating. Yet I felt as though he thought we were. anyways I am not going down that part of my life again.  Chris and I have had some rough moments. It's to the point where we used to talk all day and now we barely talk at all. It's like I disappear for a little while usually meaning busy with work, and He just disappears all together. I never realized how that would bug me, but I can't be in this kind of relationship, sometimes I feel like he is not trying to hide something yet, he doesn't or can't come to me with his problems, but he also might be doing that because he knows that I am going through a lot too, and doesn't want me to worry about his life, that's not what I am thinking I want to be able to help even though I can't help myself somedays. I am moving forward whether he likes it or not.  

In other news......

I finally own my very own blackhawks jersey mine is the green st paddy's day jersey with my man Corey Crawford, and I know that everyone wants him out of the game, but seriously it's not all him, yeah he takes the most flack because he's the goalie , but it's his teammates as well. So Keep Calm and Crawford on lol. That didn't make one sense. But I don't care at all. 

A quote that I found through pinterest 

 i know that I get those feelings all the time and It's true you find something about yourself, espeically when you let go of the people who potentially hurt you all the time and they don't realize it

   

 all right I figured I'd leave some quotes with the blogger world. I hope you all have a good day. now I am going to look around the book store  since I am sitting there just typing, i might even finish the book that I have in my bag 

Shortie post

Happy Memorial Day to everyone, Thank you too all the troops past present and future for fighting for our country you are all in my heart and prayers. 

Besides working all weekend, it was an enjoyable weekend, I went to church as a parishoner and not a singer, sometimes when I sing I don't quite listen to the message that The Lord has for the week, usually because we are getting ready for offertory and being able to sing, would be a good thing. So that's what I did yesterday just sat and listened, and praised when and sang when we had too. 

Nothing going on with the relationship with chris , I think we are just gonna be friends, I really havent talked to him, much plus he really hasn't been around much anymore, so I just figured that is what is gonna happen, and I am ok with that, it just shows that I can find people who truly care , and being friends is a good thing. 

Anyways short post today 

I think I lost my edge for reading books Oh No!

Lately when I am reading I lose interest. It doesn't matter if the book is good or terrible, I just cant sit down and read for more then 30 minutes otherwise I go crazy. Where has this been coming from . I am a book worm it's what I'd rather do then watch T.V. and drive my car . Yes I did just say drive my car. I don't know but I think maybe taking a hiatus is what Is needed. Yet when I am typing out this blog post take a  guess where I am at. Its really simple! haven't guessed yet? A BOOKSTORE. I'm at Barnes and Noble I go here when i don't have to work and I don't want to be at home where my family will bug me all the time and ask what are you doing? It's really not their business to know what I am doing, plus I get a lot more done when I am away from my house. On the plus side I am really loving my I pad now, I like being able to just throw it into my bag and if I need it and I don't really have to carry so much stuff with me. easy to travel with. 

I know this is a long shot and may take years to be able to get anything out in the open, but I am really thinking about writing a short book, nothing to fancy. I've been contemplating this for a long time, because I really do love to write. I mean I am writing in a blog for at least an hour or more depending on if I have a lot to say. Blogging I think for me is a general place for my ideas to run wild and just relax and enjoy what is in front of me, sometimes that is why I blog to be able to read back on a certain day and say yeah that was a good day.

I've been trying to brainstorm on what I should write , yet I don't know I have so many ideas, i was thinking of  a romance novel with a mixture of music in it because well I am a musician at heart and I rarely read love stories that involve a musician, because it's all stereotypical. Which is true. So this is a  question for all the writers out there. How do you find inspiration while writing and gather up enough information for chapters. And to not repeat yourself . I would love your input if you have any for a beginner writer. 

Thanks for reading this!

Mary Kay Bozec 

I haven't updated in a while

Hi everyone in blogger land! I am happy to say that I bought a ipad keyboard and I don't know if I like it quite yet. It's really small but thats ok since I have limited amount of room as it is. I am beyond happy lately. YAY HAPPY POST.  So I've been on a dating website for the last couple of months , because I don't like the whole bar scene. I know many of you are probably reading this and can agree if not, thats ok bare with me. So I met this guy on their from my town in Illinois lol talk about being local! So his name is Chris and is 27 and is an auto technician for Lexus. I have to say that when I met him for the first time, yes I was nervous, I mean who wouldn't be there were so many questions running through my head, what if I was getting catfished? What if he is a sex predator, yes that really did go through my head! What if he doesn't like who I am? Holy crap am I nervous.  So we decided to meet in a public place in case I wanted to run lol. I do have to say boy was I wrong for all that I just mentioned. He was really sweet and a gentlemen, didn't pressure me into talking and being like lets go out on a date date. Which was really nice, So I am writing to you after having now two dates with Chris. The first date we went to Bdubs. Not a general first date place but we both enjoyed ourselves, it was easy pace no looking for something to talk about. I was shocked when I was looking through my purse and found a 10 % off copoun for half price books. He was willing to go there with me and look around. It was about the sweetest thing I ever heard. 

So onto the 2nd date, we decided to do a laid back date, we just stayed at his townhome and cooked dinner , we went to walmart where I found some old friends from high school and it was maybe the most awkward feeling when asked who is this guy next to you. lol I literally said he is my friend, LOL embarressed yes, but he was ok with it. BONUS POINTS.  So we got a few things from the store went back to his place and made dinner, then while we were eating dinner his friend came over to pick something up, and Chris felt bad I told him it was fine, His friend Michael felt bad about coming in between our date . I told him it was fine, Chris was ok with it so we decided to let him sit and eat dinner with us. We made zuchinni casserole and chicken. Over all it was a good night. very laid back indeed, and It just made us appreciate the company that is put in front of us. 

So I am hoping that I can update you more on as this goes on. HERES HOPING . 

I know that My ex is my ex and there is a reason why he will always be my ex, and I am finally moving on and being happy with who I am and every day is a gift in  itself.  Now unto some sad news so My friend from high school had a baby 2 months early ,with sad heart she has lost the baby. I feel awful and I know that i cant do anything besides pray and give encouraging words, because that is what sometimes you have to do. I know that Baby Liam is looking over them now wishing that they will be happy once again.

RIP LIAM you will be missed 

angel got his wings ...

Have a great Friday night 

Why Me ?

Today was one of those days off where I didn't want to spend all my time at home , you think I would want to but its so nice outside minus it looks like its going to rain. But Hey That is ok. I wanted to wish all the mothers out there  HAPPY BELATED  MOTHERS DAY!!!! I hope you all had a great day spending it with the people that you love. 

I didn't get to so much with my mom yesterday because I worked the night before and slept most of the day. Which is understandable but it still wasn't fair to my mom and plus all my sister rarely did was just yell at her. but other than that. 

A lot has been happening around here and I really haven't had the time to blog like I want to. with packing up the house to be sold and finding another job, and looking for a place to live that I can at least afford with a couple of my friends. Would be nice, but hard to stay within budget. YIKES BUDGET. I budget a lot with owning my car and student loans. It's hard because people back out the last minute and they say they can't anymore. I get it and understand. So as of right now I'm not homeless per say its more like i have a roof over my head for a little while longer while. I try to make what my life has handed me. I know that some of my friends will be around for me know matter what and that I can at least count on them. But how this started isn't how I wanted it to happen, if everyone was actually being open about it in the first place. It would of had a better outcome and not a lot of scrambling around to try to fix everything at once. AND NO I AM NOT SAYING MY LIFE IS TERRIBLE. just a little disjumbled. On top of being in a wedding with in the next couple of months and the bride being an bridezilla like always it makes me wonder is she ever not going to be selfish and it's all about her.  She makes me the most angriest person ever and I understand it's her big day but trying to get through to her and her mysterious bubble when she doesn't realize anything else around her besides whats in her bubble. 

It makes me not want to be in her wedding at all. I know that is horrible for me to say but it's so true. 


any ideas for stress relievers besides the whole working out I've been doing that a lot lately. I listen to music, I pray, I don't know what else to do. In this situation. Besides keeping my head up while I go through this.