Giving advice , do you ever follow your own advice...

I've been trying to write a blog post for the last couple of days , and yeah I have Idea's but I never know if I actually want to share them.  I know I should because If you made it this far into my blog posts I usually have something to say, granted some of it's just pretty stupid, but hey if that's what happens in my life so be it.

So I've been off of overnights for at least three weeks nowm and I have to say that I love having my saturday nights back , even though I usually just stay in and read a book. YES I AM THAT LAME... Granted If I want to drink I can without having to go out and pay a crap ton of money, Usually I blog either on Friday nights or Saturday, sometimes sundays but it just depends. 

So I have a youtube channel and I barely use it, yes I have videos on their but I really haven't posted anything on my channel in a while. I wanted to start a vlog. I know those are usually interesting and funny too depending on the outcome and what are in them especially in your daily lives. But right now I don't think I would want to share that much. yet here I am sharing it with all of you through words. 

So onto the the actual blog post that I am supposed to be doing today...

So have you ever given people some advice for just about anything, whether it be from dating to just staying positive etc... 

I guess you can call me the advice whisperer the reason why I say that about myself is because I can give decent advice, and I know that people don't have to take my advice and or even listen to my advice, because yeah I don't know everything. I AM NOT PERFECT. Sometimes I feel as though I should of went into phsycology, anyways i was helping a friend of mine through a hard time have you ever heard you can call me all hours of the night. Yeah me too 2:30 A.M. can I just say for once I wasn't really awake to take all that information, but you know what I did the best I could and If I helped Great if I didn't no big deal. I laugh though because a lot of people have told me , "ya know you should really take your own advice." ok thanks for that pep talk, but do you honestly think that I would take my own advince for my own life yeah I should , but sometimes It's just nice to help others rather then help yourself. Granted I feel as though it's a little naive of me to think about and I get that, but sometimes I just don't want to worry about myself for once and just let things happen. I guess you can call that fate or just plain stupidity , but hey its just me.

I know that I've been struggling from my job, to social life, to love life, to just barely breathing above water with bills and just being an adult. I know that It will get easier , but I just want one thing to go right in my life, I hate waking up and  thinking is today going to be a good day or is it gonna turn out to be just like any other day. I am grateful for my friends who have stuck by me through the long run. I know it's not easy for them to be around me when I have a lot going on, but It's noted whose around.. The only thing that I can say about that is to just stay positive, and laugh often, and relax there is nothing that I can't do right now, and it's not worth getting stressed out about. Do I wish I had my life a little simpler sometimes, but God put me on this earth to do something with my life, I just havent figured it out yet. Do I Give up yes. I guess I just feel defeated, but sometimes just surrounding yourself with people who love you and just laugh a lot , they say that it's a huge stress reliever or is that sex, or wait is it exercising, I don't know honestly. But what I do know is that I laugh everyday even if it's a chuckle, I can't really go back to working out just yet .( go to the wedding post) it explains it there. and Sex don't really care or have it and that's ok. And Yes I did just say that. 

I hope you all have a great night. and It's back to reading Charlotte Bronte's Jane Eyre. I love reading as you can tell i usually can get through a book withing 3 days depending on the length and if i actually don't get disturbed a lot. 

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Wedding day fun

So my friend is finally married!!! everything went off without a hitch, we had a good weather day and it was just really fun. until a groomsman stepped on my foot while it was in my heel and bruised it so bad that on the outside looks like a fracture it really is not!

 this was the day after the wedding....

during work on monday I finally went home early because I was in a lot of pain

this is what i am now wearing for the next two weeks..... Can you tell that I am amused... Granted I can still work but it makes it a little difficult to stand. I just can't wait till the swelling goes down then maybe I can put a regular shoe on!!!...

 before picture . I know what people are going to say why do you do that a before picture, I guess it's just to see what is so very different about me.. I don't care for the makeup and the dressing up because I'd rather have them see me for me and not hiding behind looking awesome.  And yes that is my dads shirt that I fit into 

hair made up looks ok it was something different and I let the hair dresser have fun she said I was her easiest customer. I guess they really like that..

finish touches minus my flowers .

 we were having some fun at the reception 

my groomsman Josh and I supporting the Blackhawks on their FIRST HOME GAME and YES THEY WON 6-2 !!! 

we decided to be bad asses lol over all he was a nice guy... 

the groom and the maids 

 neighbors aka la familia 

 whole bridal party. we were some fun people to hang out with!

 maids flowers 

mom and I

 rehearsal dinner 

 neighbors again .. yeah I didn' t like how that dress looked after a while but hey couldn't beat that price of 6.00 

 after 64 bobby pins later my hair was still really curly when i woke up the next morning lets just say that I had to wash my hair twice to get all the hairspray out ...  

last picture I promise I went to pick up my dog from my aunts house on sunday afternoon to see her and catch up... Over all lazy sunday. I came home to celebrate my neighbors bday which was the day after the wedding and we watched the bears game they won!

Overall a fun tiring weekend , but I had a great time letting go for a couple of days and just be in the moment. 

Ramblings

Ashton being a bed hog

Hello My Lovelies! Most of you probably have read my past blog posts and wonder what is actually going on. Yes I  know I've been kind of complaining a lot and not a lot of just get out there and you'll be fine motto. Well If you haven't read them I am moving out of my childhood home. But not just me , but my whole family. My sister has already found a place to stay her friend was very nice to let her stay. Mom still doesn't know where she wants to end up.. all I know is that she wants to make the end goal Florida . But I am afraid that she will not get the states help with link cards and being able to support herself. Granted I am also going through that what can I afford on my kind of income. It's a rarity that I get overtime at my job. If it means that I suffer sleepless nights or days for that matter.  Do I spend the time traveling to the other stores within the franchise. We have 7 stores in our franchise owner, I've been to 5 out of the 7 stores within the last year. Some come and go for twice a week or three times a week.

When I am not working I am either doing what I am right now. Blogging it's my way of just taking a breather or just time to myself. I also am looking for apartments within the area, but I am worried that I can't afford them on my own. As you can tell I am very anti social a lot it's not that I don't like going out I do , but If i don't have to go out I won't. I am ok with reading books and watching movies or catching up on my tv shows.  I guess my priorities have changed so much in my life because of many different things. I guess one was when my dad passed it was hard on our family and we all kind of had to change a lot and deal with what was thrown in front of us. When I turned 21 that was all fine and dandy woo hoo I can legally drink now.. Whats funny is my mom gave me permission at 20 It was at my neighbors 40th bday and I just lived across the street. Does that Make it a wrong thing for parenting. No i don't think so. It wasn't like I was with people I didn't trust. I know many people would probably frown upon.

Lately I've been working a lot of hours and crazy shifts at my job. I have to say that I am grateful to have a job , it's just hard trying to get out of the food service , because that's what I always attract I guess that's ok , but when you really want to get out of it . It just brings up a hard time.  I just need to find something else to help me pay for an apartment and maybe not land on the streets. I wish that I had the support of my mom , but lately I feel as though she thinks that I have everything under control, yet I don't know where to start. I don't make enough to live on my own otherwise I would of done it a long time ago. Any chance I had possible roommates always backed out on me... it was nerve racking and also I now have to take in two cats because my sister can't take all three and sure enough mom can't take them either...


So today I reached an all time low or at least I think, but I may be reading more into this then intended. But today I went to together we cope, it's a second hand store but can also help you with bills and rent etc... they couldn't help me with that, but they did give me food for a month... I know that I do have a job and that I budget like crazy, but when things come up it's like no social life which hey I am ok with that. Now if my mom could get off my back with trying to find a guy to spend the rest of my life with..
One thing at a time I keep telling myself.