Thankful Thursday

It's time for Thankful Thursday I haven't done it in a while. 

I am thankful for so many things in my life.

I am thankful for a wonderful family even though sometimes we get on each others nerves. 

I am thankful for the friends that I have and that I can be crazy with all of them.

I am thankful for my education and that I wouldn't be were I am today if it wasn't for my education

I am thankful for a wonderful boyfriend , if it wasn't for him I wouldn't be able to be the best that I could be. 

I am thankful for my animals because if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be as compassionate or responsible  as I am 

I am thankful for everything that has happened if it's bad or good it's what god wanted to plan for me .

I am thankful that I get to go back to church even if it's only once a month . I've prayed for the life that is to come and that I'm thankful for my life in general.

I hope you all have a great Thankful Thursday 

What I Love about Wednesday

What I Love about Wednesday is that It's the middle of the week , and that I am happier then I ever been in a long time. Which is really great.
I've been changing a lot about myself that I am really enjoying . I've dressed up for at least the last two days (pictures to follow) I've cut my hair short again (pictures of before and after soon to follow). 

 I know in the past I've bragged about finally finding the "one"
with Geoffrey, but as that relationship went on I felt as if I was being someone who I didn't want to become. I felt as if I was loosing myself which I really needed to find. I've finally re found myself I've been my bubbly non makeup wearing enthusiastic musician. 

I think what happened was I was trying to be what Geoffrey wanted this self respected confident, successful, women who had to give up on a lot of what truly made her her. I know that I am not perfect , I don't think I would ever want to be perfect. I just want a relationship that is real and I believe I've found it.

I know what most of you are going to say that it's too soon. It's only been a month in a half, but every time I see him (steven) I just light up and I feel so happy.. I feel like I can talk to him forever , when we are not together it's like I feel like I am missing my other half. I feel so complete.  I tend to sleepover at his apartment and just hang out with him and his roommates because we all go to school together as well. 
You all can call me crazy or whatever but I know that I may be crazy .. but I feel so normal for myself kind of normal ..

Well thats all for today folks I hope you have a great Wednesday 

playing catch - up ready set GO

 So it's been a great while since I've blogged. I've been extremely busy with school since it's the last three weeks of school left. I still can't believe that I am going to be graduating soon. It seems so surreal, yet so far away. I can't wait too be able to move out of my moms house and finally start living my life because yeah it's going to suck for a while, yet it's something I need to do .. I don't want to be living at my moms house til I am 30 which will be in five years. Yikes 

This past weekend my best friend got married.. I am so happy for her and her husband they are perfect for each other. I love the both of them. I'm so happy to have experienced them getting married. They are going to live a happy and long life. I just know it. 

My other friend who has two kids already and married is doing a lot better. From what she tells me Vincents really trying but it's still a long road to recovery. I've been on the long road to recovery for a long time. 

My aunt decided that Katie and I needed something that was really expensive and what not .. I got a starting wardrobe basic jean jacket black pants a navy cardigan and top that goes with it. 
and a scarf so very basic but it will get added to my other wardrobe things. The only thing that really sucks is that everything that you really need to start a new wardrobe is really expensive and something that a college student who has limited time to work should be using.. 
So hopefully I can get some more things for a little cheaper in price but have it still look good.. 

I feel as though i really never know what to write in this anymore because i feel as though all i do is one complain and give insight sometimes. But also I feel as though this can be just a place where I can gather my thoughts and get opinions because sometimes that is all that you need. 


Steven and I have been really good lately there hasn't been any fights .. Just kind of lonely because of the distance thing. Yeah we go to school but a lot of the times it gets to the point of that we don't really make time for each other. We try to but our schedules with school are completely different and it's hard to get time because I'm wrapped up in projects every week and driving back home every day is getting to be a drag .. I have been wishing that I could just move up to the city and it will be easier on my stress level and I can actually sleep a lot longer than getting up at 5 every morning to be out the door by 6 or 630 depending on the day.
What I think is that it will work out in the end it just going to take a great deal of time and patience. Something I've learned with my last relationship. You need patience..


We've been remodeling our house which seems like it's taking a lot longer than what is expected. It's a lot of work spending at least 12-15 hours working on the house. If it's ripping out carpet (which I've become really good at it ) or cleaning out what is left in the room, or taking out light fixtures and fans I can do that too ( well supervised) but I still can say that i can do it.  I just can't wait till the end of it and when everything will pay off. 

I'm ready for a new hairstyle and color I am going to wait on the color process because I am low on funds and usually I can get a good haircut for 20.00 and that's with it styled.  I am thinking of cutting a lot of my length off because right now it's at about my shoulders and I think i want to go back to a bob because it will frame my face better. 

sitting here waiting

Hello Blogging world it's been a great while, since I've been blogging. Did you miss my posts ? Anyways this weekend has finally come and Janessa is getting married and I am on the verge of packing and making sure that I have everything that I need . 

I am hoping more like Praying that my dress is going to fit ... Please please please fit.. 
It's been awhile since one i've seen it two had it on and i feel like I gained more weight with some of the stress. 

I need to find some jewerly and some make up.. 

Any ideas to get rid of acne, that will just make the redness go down and the pimple size. My face decided it didn't want to stay clear for my friends wedding where there will be a crap ton of pictures...

I have to go and get my nails done tomorrow when I get off of school ... but I don't know what I want to do yet. I don't know if I want to just get a basic manicure and pedicure.. or go a little more pricer because if I get a basic mani pedi my mani will be chipping right away.. that or else maybe I shouldn't get a pedi and just a mani because no one is really going to see my feet anyways.. I don't know . 

Anyways I've finally picked out an up do for Saturday which i think is really pretty . I usually hate getting my hair done because I generally do my own hair because I know how tempermental it can be. 


Anyways in other news. my mom still doesn't know that I have a boyfriend. I haven't had the chance to sit down and say like btw way I have a boyfriend. She likes to over react on both my sister and I . I just want her to be happy that I am finally happy. I feel normal in this relationship.I don't know maybe I am just being normal for once because it's like we are on the same level ish with school.. and it's vandercook.. stress is our middle name when we are in this school. When you go to school for more than 12-15 hours a day just to get everything else done on top of being in classes majority of the day. 


I am hoping that this weekend will be a good one. It should be but I feel as though I really need to have a good weekend because most of the time I feel so run down. and that it's just bad to think about. 
  

Hey it's November

 So It's been a while since I've really sat down at my desk to blog. My body has been in overdrive mode with a busy schedule. 

Knock on wood that I've been healthy ... 

This weekend was a long busy two days. I was tearing up my carpet since we are getting new carpet in our bed rooms. Boy does my body hurt!!!!. It was a good work out though and a good way to relieve my stress levels. 

My friend had her recital on Saturday night, she had no control over the day and it was just a bad day for her. Well it didn't help that her accompanist was late because she was taking care of her sick son. OK I understand that it happens and that it's not really her fault because you can remember something even if it is put into your phone and easily forget. I've done it yes I feel like crap when I forget but we are human right and nobody is perfect even if they want to be.

Today I had to play at a Lutheran church for a brass quintet. 

It was the first time I've played for a church in two years. 

It was interesting because also I'm really not lutheran so there was some things that were similar  and some that really wasn't . 

It was over all a good day and long service I got there around 7:45 and didn't end up leaving til around 11:45. I've come to realize that I really want to go back to the church every Sunday or at least Saturday since I mostly work on Sundays. It's been way to long that I havent been at church. I've stopped going since my dad passed away. I've only gone when I had to or for funerals .. 

In other news. I've been a lot more happier and really see a change in the way that I think about things now. One thing that I am really excited about is that I get to walk with my graduating class which is exciting for me because my class and I have been through so much together and I don't want to sit in the band and be upset that i didn't get to walk or be with my class. 

thats all for now otherwise this will be a really really really long blog ...

 more later  loves 

Mary Kay Bozec