It's been two years since I started blogging

So It's been two years since I started this blog , It was technically longer ,But I wanted to start over. By starting over I've gotten a lot better with writing,and being able to construct better blog posts. 

I generally always keep a notebook with me when I get the inspiration to write, and it helps out at work, when I need a physical break. I really don't care if I get followers and or comments. It's really appreciated when I do get followers and comments. 

I know that most of my blog posts in the beginning were like what am I doing? I looked at most of my blog posts when I started . and I really wished that I was more into pinterest then as I am into it now. that website has been a life saver for bloggers out there, from finding cool ways to update your daily posts if you do it daily ,or like me when I have the chance to sit down and crank one out and work on it. It gives you options on backgrounds , signatures about me pages etc... 

I know that I have a long way to go with my blog, and I love being able to read other successful bloggers, and being able to comment to just say hi or comment on their post. 
I want to add so much to my blog with out over doing it . with having way too much on it. 

What are your thoughts about adding a lot or just keeping it simple? 

I would really love your opinions.
 Thanks for reading! Stay awesome!

Who I am Today and how did I get this way? And what could I do better.

Yesterday I got to spend some time with one of my best friends from college. We both had the day off from work, and I was just walking around Epcot, because well I can! to have that access is still really weird to me, but she texted me and asked if I wanted to go with her to run an errand to the local music store, and said sure why not. Well this turned out to be a good night we went out to dinner which I paid because she drove it was only fair, after much fighting lol.. Then we decided to go see Fantasmic at Hollywood studios we got our fast passes and watched the 8:30 show. It overall was a good night that I needed, even though I was at work most of the time, which isn't that park really ,but I feel as though it would be anyones work. After that we drove back to her house, where my car was, and we took her dog out and was just talking, about life in general and how we got here , and what happened to the people who we thought were really close to us, but when you up and move 1200 miles away, they all seem to disappear.

I said that has happened to me a lot when I was on my way down to Florida, but I know I needed to do this ,because I wanted a change and I wanted to see what jobs were out there for me in a different state. becaue I've been trying so hard in Illinois to do better. Yet it kept getting fired back into my face. I know that there would be consequences that I know I can't control, and I've grown on that I physically can't control anything in life  besides who I am and what I am doing right at this very mintue. Which as you know is writing this blog post after taking the time to brainstorm in my blog notebook. Yes you read that correct, I keep a blog notebook, and I also have a little book of 300 writing prompts for the really hard days that I can't figure out what I want to write. 

So you can usually hear that saying of "you can count your best friends on one hand," yep it's remarkably true, I can count them on my one hand, and then I have my generic close friends who I talk to once in a blue moon or vicce versa . I know that when I made that decision back in November that I was going to Florida I really didn't have everything set in my life, it was constantly stuff going all wrong, and just constant arguments with loved ones over the dumbest things. I know that sometimes life isn't fair trust me I've had my fair share of them. But growing up into the women I am today I've come a long way. The many relationships with a significant other all the trials and errors, from cheating too. simply why am I even in this relationship. I know that when someone cheats you just kind of go on this rampage of anger, and I have to say that I wasn't really angry ,because it wasn't something that I could control from 1200 miles away, does it bring back all the trust issues and yes it will be in the back of my mind, but If you just believe in yourself and with the person you are with, and if they actually do the things that they say they will do, then maybe you are just starting to see what you are to become.

My transition here in Florida hasn't been an easy one, as you can tell in maybe recent posts, Sometimes a huge life change is hard ,because you always have that fear of what is gonna happen, and that who your true friends are. Do I miss the people that I've gotten to know in my life over the years oh hell yeah. I miss being able to have conversations with my best friend from work Terri, from our constant messages through facebook and our what book are you reading now. She has opened up my eyes to some of the more classics like Jane Austen, and Charlotte Bronte, just to name a few.  I miss having my neighbors right there to have a impromptu beer night if we are just sitting in the summer having a cold one and just asking about everyone's day and just spending time as a family. I miss Steven and the comfort I always felt when we would spend time together. He always calls me his little introvert, because well I am. I always loved watching tv shows on netflix and or movies, and cooking random concactions and they actually turn out really good. OUr phone conversations and skyping and texting have been too a minimum lately due to opposite schedules or one is going to work while the other is just getting home . I don't know how that is gonna be when he moves down here. Which by the way we are finally in the DOUBLE DIGITS.  

I just found out though that I was originally going to be going up to Chicago in May, but trying to get time off is not easy for working with the mouse. So I am not coming up to see the family and my friends, and some of them are pretty mad, and all I said was I'm sorry I can't afford it ,and to take time off of work especially being only part time for right now, I won't have anything for bills . I will get up there eventually, but heres hoping sooner than later. 

I am going to keep working on my blog getting it to my liking lately I've been adding and taking away some things and figuring out what works. I know that it won't be like some of the more professional blogs that you see , but It's a work in procress and I am perfectly ok with that.

I hope everyone has a good night or day depending on what time it is when you're reading this . Stay awesome.

I have a Vera Bradley addiction

Hi There, and welcome to my blog. As you read in my title of this post I do have a vera bradley addicition. I know what you are probably gonna say why? It looks like an old lady bag , and really the older generation of Vera might look like that but not their new stuff. When I am working at Disney I see about 50-100 people that walk through our doors that have something from Vera. Whether it be their disney brand line of Vera , or just their normal vera bradley line. 

I have about 8 pieces from Vera bradley. one from Disney and the other 7 from her normal line. yes that may be a lot to you , but I know people out there who have more than me. I guess you can say that it's just a way to think of what do you want to carry or what do you have to carry for that day.  For example. I have a small backpack thaat I use for when I go into the Disney parks, because I always carry water with me in a big waterbottle so that my mom and I can share. Some snacks, and my wallet, phone, Car keys, chapstick. and anything else that you would need or want from the parks. 

Then I have a tote bag for when I am off to the book store, and or library( which I haven't found one that is open later then 1 P.M. (sad day for a book nerd like me). Generally When I have my tote I usually have my ipad , charger for ipad if I need it, phone, water, and the ever in case of the Florida crazy weather which is (unexpected rain). 

some other pieces of my vera addiction is I have my Disney Hipster, which I use on a regular basic, why you might ask, well one I work for Disney and I just love the pattern and the colors. 

I also have a triple hipster which is actually in my storage unit, because I wasn't using it at the time , and I'm just gonna let it be  there until I move into an apartment and can finally unload it. 

I also just bought a peite double hipster in one of the new patterns that just came out , and I wish I could remeber the name of it. Found the name it's Cherry Blossom. 

Then I have a wallet maybe two I have a wristlet, a coin purse, and then a key ring. So I may just have a lot more then when I started... See why I have an addicition, isn't it the first step to admit it that you have an addicition. 

As of now I don't think I will be buying any vera in the next couple of months, I am usualy pretty good about not buying more, usually what I do is if I am done with an item I'll sell it back to like platos closet, granted I don't get alot of what I paid for it, but I like having that satisfaction, that someone can find a vera bag for really cheap...
With that being said I always recommend going to the outlet store, becuase they usually have some good sales rather than in their regular stores.

All right I think I've bored you enough with my addiction to vera bradley.. 

stay awesome!

Why I love my fitbit

I am trying to think of something to write for my blog this week, I am trying to stray away from my job, life, why I am an introvert, etc... I feel like that is what you've been reading for the last couple months. 

So today I am going to do a review of the Fitbit app and fitbit tracker. Yes it is a little on the pricey side its about 100.00 before tax. and it comes with a charger for the the device which is nice.

So I've alwys been curious as too really how many miles and steps I walk in a given day. And I have to say that the average mileage that i put it whether it be walking around the trailer to the mailbox work you get the picture. I usually rank in 4.5 miles or over 5 depending on if I walk a lot during the day . 

 Generally I want to become a healthier person, since now I am in a warmer state I can actually exercise outside before we get the famous Florida rain. I've been trying to run more often too, but with working late hours and barely sleeping a full 7-8 hours I will just work on walking, and drinking water, and eating healthier. I also want to look into a gym membership that is within budget and offer classes included in the membership. I love to dance mostly lyrical and contemporary and jazz. I really don't think I told anyone that before. so here's to a new me and working towards a better body. 

Let my mind wander ..

Yay for my first post for February, that's a good start. I know that with all this training for work and getting random hours of work, I know that my blog would take a hit , and mostly because of being busy, and gaining hours like crazy. I think once I kind of get on a normal schedule I will be all right.

So if you read my last post at the end of last month you probably saw that I got cheated on. Yes, that did happen, and you know I still am just like whatever, I guess that my heart and mind are still pretty numb about it.  I know what you are probably thinking " Come on Mary Kay get rid of him , because noone deserves that in their life. Yes you are right, that I should of got rid of him, but here I am fighting my own battles. Your probably wondering what other battles I am trying to get over.  Mostly just trying to get used to this new life, yes I've made some friends at work, but I still feel as though something is missing. No matter how hard I try I still feel like I'm failing at something or at least just don't know what else to do.

Yes I know this blog post is probably a weird one, but my thoughts have been confusing lately and trying to understand what is going on in my mind. I am signing up for a gym membership at work, it's a lot cheaper then going to an outside source even though they are not open on the weekend, but that just means I'll have to figure something else on the weekend.

That's all for now.

stay awesome possums, and be nice to people!