some witty type of title on the title.

I can't believe how many months I have neglected my blog. I really don't mean to neglect it . With a lot of stuff that has been happening lately , and just becoming on the mend with my most recent car accident , which I will update at another time. I went kind of out of a spiral  for mental health and over all health in general. Like I mention I know I have a lot to catch up my readers on I will be working on this more whether it's one blog post a week or one every two weeks. I want to start out small to get back into the swing of writing.

I started a bullet journal which helps keep me occupied at work while on calls. Plus I have been trying to do a book challenge for the year which is to read 15 books. I usually can surpass  that amount easily because I am an avid book reader, yet I have lost my mojo to be able to read as many books as I  have in my apartment. Which I bought a bookshelf for so I can read all the books lol. I am so far on book 14 out of 15  which will be due by New Years eve.  Currently I am reading One Day In December by Josie Silver.  So far I am in love with this book. I didn't think i would love it . But never judge a book by it's cover. It's witty and down to earth , of a love triangle for a. little bit, still more to come. But what do with fate meeting your soul mate on a random day on the way home from work . Like whoa. 

 Would anyone want to do like a book challenge with me or start like an online book club over social media ? anyone interested? 

 I have also started working on my YouTube channel which has been another reason why I have been Mia . I didn't realize how difficult it was to make a video even if it was a simple video. But hey it's a learning process.  I'm excited to broaden my horizons with it and continue to learn and grow as a vlogger as well. So far what I have on my channel is some of my performances as a musician and a Disney vlog because we go to Disney so often now a days. So I think the last video of that was for flower and garden.

 I know that this blog post is going to be really short but I promise more content is coming  plus a lot of other updates as well. 

updates

So it has been about a couple months since the last time that I have been writing in general. I'm not saying that I haven't had the time to write I really have had they time, but I've been doing a lot of  different things whether it be school, work or life in general. It has taken so much time to really kind of figure out slash getting back into what normalcy is what I mean by that is I've been grieving my mom even though most days it's good to miss her or healthy in that sense. I've still been dealing with pregnancy and not being pregnant anymore. That has truly turned my life a whole lot of upside down. I went from restarting school, and then finding out that I was pregnant then the next month to finding out that I was not expecting and that caused so much grief so much of continuing to ask why  and I know that there is really no answer as to why? 

With that being said I know that I have gotten so much scrutiny along with some condolences. To this day I personally don't know why I even mention to anyone what I have been feeling in general about the subject. I am 31 years old  I wouldn't be raising the child alone I have a significant other that will be  there 24/7. I know that there are people out there who don't have the support system . They have way worse then I do, I just wished that they kept the things that they said to themselves. I was so glad that my previous supervisor and senior manager were so supportive in it all . It was something I wasn't expecting to have to go through, however I've been through loss so many times between my parents and grandparents and pets. We all go through it multiple times in our lives.  In general it's been a whirlwind of emotions the last couple of months.  I really haven't had the chance to really sit down and write out anything and I feel as though that I've been at a lost because of everything that has happened. 

I'm so excited to have my significant other around more I didn't really know what I was missing having someone to come home too, someone who we can do anything  during the week and make dinner and what not . I know people think that we are rushing into a lot of things , but in all reality I've been waiting for him my whole life , he came at a time in  my life that I wasn't looking for anyone, with all that I had going on with my life but he stuck it out with all my craziness. I would never give him up , he always surprises  me like he buys flowers randomly  there is no reason for it always a great surprise to have When I had a bad day at work came home to flowers. Made my whole day  a lot better. I know many people think that I am rushing , but with the scrutiny of it all is what has me thinking like shoot I was in my 20's and was engaged once and many people said that I was too young, but now that I am in my 30's some people are still saying that I am still too young yet age is just a number and when people put there own personal aspects of there life into my life , it gets frustrating because I feel  as though since I am in my own time of life and they are in there own that we have to be all on the same page. 

I have been so very stressed lately with the apartment and just everything in general, however grateful that things are finally  setting into place.  as much as it has been stressful I know that it's been a long time coming. I'm grateful that my family was around to help me get back on my feet to be able to  keep going. it's been a lot of changes with in the last year , and I'm grateful that I have gone through them all. The moment that you have a breath of fresh air or a sigh of relief. 

Always playing catch up.

I have been meaning to find a way  to think about what I want to do for my mom’s one year anniversary. I still can’t believe that its been a year already . Where has the time gone? I know that I took the day off, not because I wanted a day off it was just Idk how I would be that day when I wake up . I could be in best of spirits or I could be falling apart . I don’t know . I figured  if I had a couple days off I figured why not go through all her stuff  and downsize even more with some of her stuff, or I thought about taking a day to go to the beach maybe and take photos or . I’d go somewhere like a state park for some photos. I have no idea yet.

 I even thought about going to her favorite Disney park which is Animal kingdom. I start another semester of classes this week so that will be fun. Even though I hate math it’s the worst. Never really understood it. Probably never will.
 Work has been going well we finally got dual monitors which means more time and easier way to be able to do multiple different things without having to keep flipping back and forth between pages. It’s so much easier.


Short little post I have more to update on just need some extra time.  To be able to write some posts.

hello I am still here.

So I know that I haven’t been around here much with my blog posts lately . Some days I never  really know what to really type  or what do I really want to share with the world. I know that in college i used to do this at least twice a week maybe if I got most of my projects done. But after moving down to Florida for 4 years now. It seems as though my blogs have been becoming less and less. 
 In the last 8months so if i am thinking straight it would be April. Correct me if i am wrong but i went from having my mom around to her passing away to quitting a job that i was going no where with to a new job, to celebrating my moms life with a funeral to go home and see many friends and family to starting said job to moving closer to work and then now working on that raise to a higher position. Let’s just say that it has been a long time since I’ve actually been here to sit down and actually write a  blog out. A lot has happened since the last time I blogged which was I have to say August of last year so 2018 .  So  It has been a long while . 

So far it’s been almost a year since my mom has been gone. I have my fiancé moving in with me, I have gotten a  new car, new job title found out I was pregnant , and then two weeks later I misscarried . So it’s been a lot since the new year hit and since the last time that I have said anything really .