It Gets Better

This week I've been very into just enjoying my time with the people that truly matter. I know that I may not be the perfect person to be with or the person that many won't see as much or that don't understand how I am. I know that I may seem different on the outside, but I am just like most people insecure with everything.
I have been in the whole rediscover what makes me me ? I have to say that I am truly a tom bot at heart! I don't like to play much of sports but I will go out and play occasionally. I normally don't dress up and if I do its because I felt like it. I laugh at myself because I know that I will never be perfect. I am afraid of getting myself out there because in general I never really know who is kidding or not. I know there are a bunch of people who just make fun of people because, they can and they think its what makes them feel better.

Last week which I don't know if I mentioned in my last post I think that was more of the hospital visit. Yikes ! Anyways I was at work and taking a customers order and he walks back and throws the burger at me and starts swearing up a storm and threatens my life ! yes you saw corrected he wanted to threaten my life. over a burger.

 I made sure it had no onions and it didn't the second time around, but he still came back, at that point I didn't even serve him because I was too pissed off. My emotions got to me and I broke down in the middle of work. I went to the side and just cried and then came back out and was fine. In all reality I hope I don't have to see him again. which unfortunately I saw him the next day at work i avoided him like the plague!! If he talked to ma again like he did before I would of told him to get out of the store that no one is going to serve you here. Our store is like a family will always be there for each other. 

waiting for more

So I have to say this week was full of ups and downs. But I still made it the best. Even though I ended up with a head injury{LONG STORY). Basically I was cleaning out our crawl space because I am the shortest in my family. I hit my head against one of the wooden boards I basically kept going later that night I couldn't sleep my head was throbbing so badly. I went to work a 9 hour shift knowing that I was having issues, but i couldn't call it off because my manager was the one who gave me 5 extra hours. So I went to urgent care when my mom got home because I didn't trust myself driving to the place. Turns out I had to go get a cat scan at the hospital after that visit. I was nervous wreck. I was more worried with the results rather than the injury. 

I felt like I was on a roller coaster of emotions I texted my closes friends and told them what was going on, because if something else popped up then I wanted them to know. 

Everything came back negative (YAYAYAY). I was relieved and took it easy the next couple days i went to work and worked about 6 hours out of the 8 and then I took off Wednesday to just relax and sleep same with Thursday. I finally felt better on Friday I took it easy at work, and pulled through same with Saturday. 


But with all this commotion I prayed for my health and safety generally I never really take the time to pray a lot. I've been going back to church before this incident happened. I love going to church, it gives me the time to reflect, and listen to what god has to give us. I have to say that his message this week fit perfectly on how I was feeling. 

Catch up

I've been trying for so long to get this blog up and running with blog posts every week , but When I come across an idea it's just plain babbling on an on about something. I guess that can be a good thing and or bad depending on the situation. 

Today I have an interview. I was originally supposed to have this interview on July 3rd. I showed up they didn't . It took them a week to email me back . Granted they did apologize ,but really a week? So hopefully the second time I won't get stood up again .

A lot has happened since I last was on here. I went on vacation with the family I have to say that it was fun in some parts, others it was stressful and I guess you can say too many cooks in the kitchen type deal. Really there was only two families who were really cooking mine and my neighbors across the street. Here are a couple pictures from vacation more to follow. I took only 230 pictures on vacation. Not bad for not taking my camera everywhere. 

I am not a firm believer of the church , but I still go to find peace when needed. It's a nice feeling.

fourth of July was fun in some parts I was off of work for the day WOO HOO..

I went to my uncles in Naperville with my mom. I had a good time ,but I hate it when they start talking about when are you going to start your future when is this going to happen. It's like ok I get what you are saying ,but don't get into my business of what I can or can not do. I know my life may not be going on where I wanted it to, but that doesn't mean that I am a failure. 

Thank you for making me feel like one. 

Many pictures !! Graduation and my senior recital and Fraternity sisters. 

More to come later. I have to go and get ready for an interview wish me luck!